Stress Case
For those of you that know me well (or who have read my blog) know that I am a STRESS CASE! If anything can be stressed about I WILL stress about it. We are talking things that would bring the normal every day Joe Schmoe no stress.
I stress about going to new stores to shop. It sometimes takes me years months to shop at a store that I've never been to. There are currently several stores in town that I'd love to explore but Chris isn't around when I think of it and therefore I don't go to them.
I stress about the kids, where they are, what they are doing, what they are eating/not eating, what they wear, how they speak, how they do in school, their sleeping habits, the list could go on forever...literally.
I stress about money, how much we have/how much we don't have. This is why Chris pays the bills, because I was a huge stress case every month trying to remember to put the stinkin' bills in the mail (this was before online bill pay!) Even turning that task over to him some 10 years ago I still stress about it because at any given moment I have no idea how much money we have. Chris has tried to have me get more involved but I can't decide if it's more stressful to know or not to know...see I even stress about what to stress about...I'm hopeless.
My current level of stress is Code Red. That's the worst. It's the level that puts me into HUGE denial, like I pretend that it's not going to happen denial. I can talk to people about my current stress, give details about it, but really in my mind I like to think that it's in the future, a future that won't happen any time soon! My current stress is about our upcoming vacation.
We are leaving soon on a vacation to Chile. Yes, CHILE. That's a foreign country...a country far far away from America...a country that does not speak English as a first language...a country that I have to take an airplane to!!!!! UGH just writing it makes me queasy.
First of all I hate to fly. I know that a lot of people say that, scared of heights blah blah blah, but I'm really scared. The last flight I took was with L 2 years ago from St. Louis to LA and I had a huge panic attack on the airplane because of some minor turbulence. We are talking crying, rocking in my seat clutching my baby, and almost stealing the tiny bottle of liquor from the man next to me just to calm myself down. I also get very sick, light headed and disoriented. It's like my brain gets left on the ground and takes a good 2 hours to catch up. It's the strangest feeling I've ever had and I've been on lots of fun drugs in hospitals!
Here is a small list of some of my other concerns about going on said vacation:
Losing one of the children (had to buy a leash for L)
Having our wallets stolen by Gypsies! (no kidding real life Gypsies)
The weather and packing the right kind of clothes
One of us getting sick and having to be treated by a foreign Dr.
One of us losing a filling and having to be treated by a foreign dentist, which is probably worse than a foreign Dr!
CH having some sort of allergic reaction and dying.
Getting some crazy disease that we've never heard of
Getting some crazy disease that we've heard of
My children getting kidnapped and sold into the sex slave industry (no kidding I'm freaked)
People touching me. I don't like people touching me.
Getting kicked off the plane in Nicaragua (after emergency landing) because my kids are just too crazy
running out of diapers and them being too expensive to buy there.
Chile having an earthquake and us not being able to get back on time.
Chile having an earthquake and a tsunami
Seriously this list could go on a long time. Most of these things are things that I have no control over...unless we had never decided to go!
So now that I've run down my stresses here are some of the things I'm looking forward to:
Seeing the ocean again!!!! (this one is worth like 100 points)
Having my kids have this once in a lifetime experience. (200 points)
Having my husband have this once in a lifetime, cross it off his bucket list, experience.(200 points)
Tasting Chilean food.
Shopping in the flea markets
See there are some great things!
But I'll still stress, because that's who I am.
I stress about going to new stores to shop. It sometimes takes me
I stress about the kids, where they are, what they are doing, what they are eating/not eating, what they wear, how they speak, how they do in school, their sleeping habits, the list could go on forever...literally.
I stress about money, how much we have/how much we don't have. This is why Chris pays the bills, because I was a huge stress case every month trying to remember to put the stinkin' bills in the mail (this was before online bill pay!) Even turning that task over to him some 10 years ago I still stress about it because at any given moment I have no idea how much money we have. Chris has tried to have me get more involved but I can't decide if it's more stressful to know or not to know...see I even stress about what to stress about...I'm hopeless.
My current level of stress is Code Red. That's the worst. It's the level that puts me into HUGE denial, like I pretend that it's not going to happen denial. I can talk to people about my current stress, give details about it, but really in my mind I like to think that it's in the future, a future that won't happen any time soon! My current stress is about our upcoming vacation.
We are leaving soon on a vacation to Chile. Yes, CHILE. That's a foreign country...a country far far away from America...a country that does not speak English as a first language...a country that I have to take an airplane to!!!!! UGH just writing it makes me queasy.
First of all I hate to fly. I know that a lot of people say that, scared of heights blah blah blah, but I'm really scared. The last flight I took was with L 2 years ago from St. Louis to LA and I had a huge panic attack on the airplane because of some minor turbulence. We are talking crying, rocking in my seat clutching my baby, and almost stealing the tiny bottle of liquor from the man next to me just to calm myself down. I also get very sick, light headed and disoriented. It's like my brain gets left on the ground and takes a good 2 hours to catch up. It's the strangest feeling I've ever had and I've been on lots of fun drugs in hospitals!
Here is a small list of some of my other concerns about going on said vacation:
Losing one of the children (had to buy a leash for L)
Having our wallets stolen by Gypsies! (no kidding real life Gypsies)
The weather and packing the right kind of clothes
One of us getting sick and having to be treated by a foreign Dr.
One of us losing a filling and having to be treated by a foreign dentist, which is probably worse than a foreign Dr!
CH having some sort of allergic reaction and dying.
Getting some crazy disease that we've never heard of
Getting some crazy disease that we've heard of
My children getting kidnapped and sold into the sex slave industry (no kidding I'm freaked)
People touching me. I don't like people touching me.
Getting kicked off the plane in Nicaragua (after emergency landing) because my kids are just too crazy
running out of diapers and them being too expensive to buy there.
Chile having an earthquake and us not being able to get back on time.
Chile having an earthquake and a tsunami
Seriously this list could go on a long time. Most of these things are things that I have no control over...unless we had never decided to go!
So now that I've run down my stresses here are some of the things I'm looking forward to:
Seeing the ocean again!!!! (this one is worth like 100 points)
Having my kids have this once in a lifetime experience. (200 points)
Having my husband have this once in a lifetime, cross it off his bucket list, experience.(200 points)
Tasting Chilean food.
Shopping in the flea markets
See there are some great things!
But I'll still stress, because that's who I am.
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